Saturday, 31 May 2014

Being restless

... the manifesto of a troubled art amateur.

Hello there, dear readers.

Well, yes, this blog has been on hiatus again for a while - except for two quick Illustration Friday uploads. In the meantime, I did a little bit of art, and a big bit of thinking. A whole lot of thinking.

It seems like the difficulties in my life are to go on for another while. :/ But that is not a subject for this blog, an art blog. And some of you reading this I consider my friends. And you who are, know what's going on anyway.

But onto the art part. I feel like sharing this with you.

Recently I suffer some kind of... art puberty. Mmh yes, I might put it like that.
The creativity hormones are going crazy in my mind. On one day there's too much of them, and then there's a lack. And even on days with a large scale of them, I can't really work it. It confuses me.

So I constantly switch from a phase in which I desperately want to create, to another where I don't pay attention to my sketchbooks and pencils, my guitar, or my camera. Unfortunately, the system is more balanced towards the latter state.

It is not a simple art block where I more or less put up with a steady period of not creating until things start flowing again. I start a picture, and then I have to pause to sleep or go to uni and later, on the same day, I wouldn't continue, because the mood is suddenly gone. I work on something, I do something else for a couple of hours, and then I decide to leave it. And when I have another creative rush, I start something new. And then the circle continues. And now I have this pile of unfinished works...

Some moments I think of restarting this blog all over, paying more attention again to all my social media art communites and stuff, because it feels good to get feedback.
And then again, I don't care about publishing something at all.

I'm restless. I can neither settle with a state of constant creative flow, or "constant leaving it be", as I too had it sometimes. Which is really frustrating. :/

I realised that there are a lot of battles going on in me, the troubled artist teenager going through puberty.

Of course, being anxious in life generally possibly causes an effect on my art streak, too.

I wish I would manage to channel all this anxiety and work it into my art. I tried, but it's not flowing smoothly. I get stuck.

Dear readers, have you ever experienced such a state? How did you manage?
I want to move forward, be it one direction or the other.

Wednesday, 19 February 2014

Hidden Town


look who's back for another update the very next day! ;) Can you believe it?

Just something I did during classes again, haha..

After Helsinki I had some stopover at home for a couple of days, and when I had to travel back to Salzburg for uni, I forgot to take my art stuff with me. :( All I have here now is the limited number of items I always carry around in my handbag: a sketchbook (a little bigger than A5), some pencils and ink pens, a small box of watercolour pencils and my mini watercolour set.

That's why I can't work on some things that are long due actually... several art trades (sorry guys!) and a Birthday present have been on my to do list for a while already. Furthermore there are other unfinished drawings I wanted to continue working on as well. I do have some bigger watercolour pad here, but with only those pencils and my small set (the pans are really tiny!) I just can't work properly.

And so I try to make the best of it and just get all ideas out of my head and onto sketchbook pages alone for now, like creating thumbnails for the actual paintings to come (or not). ;)

It's also kind of refreshing to have only a couple of tools at hand. I don't spend too much time pondering whether I should colour something with markers, or maybe watercolours, simply ink it, or...
I do it with the stuff I have!

Creating these little doodles doesn't take much time, but they are fun and practise after all. ♥

And they keep me sane.

Good night!

Monday, 17 February 2014

Some day in February

Hello again!

So it's been one month and one day since I wrote something.
*browses through the old entry*
Well, I still struggle with some things happening in my life right now, some got better, some new problems accrued. Another big fat one popped up just today, and I'm still feeling rattled.
But that's life, huh? I'm trying to deal with it as best as I can.

And not only bad things are happening. Another reason for my hiatus here was me being busy meeting friends, being in Helsinki and Vienna for a while, visiting events, having fun!

A while ago I started taking part in this challenge: 100 Happy Days
Every day you upload a photo of something that made you happy. I'm at day 21 now, and I have so much fun doing it. It's like some kind of self-treatment. I'm a stubborn one, so even on a really bad day I keep uploading my photos. I just don't want to quit, so I force myself to see something positive in every day. And there is! You only have to open your eyes to it. :)
I'm doing the challenge via Instagram, you can see my submissions here, if you're interested.

I haven't been completely idle in terms of drawing, either. Drawing helps as well. I just can't show you all of it. One half is too personal, the other isn't scanned yet and I can't do so until I come home again, because I left it all there. (Yes I know, it's always the same lame excuse, I'm sorry. :D But it's a little difficult when you're studying somewhere else, and travelling back and forth, especially with larger paintings.)

There are two pieces I did very recently that I can show you now. I'm sitting in class many hours a day, so after a while it's really hard to keep paying attention. And it's a computer class, so it's very tempting to just browse the net, or chat with friends etc. ~~ But I remembered that back in school I doodled a lot while listening, and so I gave it a try again. Last Friday I started with a blank page in the morning, I just began doodling a little, and until lunch it looked like this:

And when classes were over in the afternoon, like this:

This one is a fanart of one of my favourite Anime series, "Mushishi." :) I didn't use any reference though, so it's probably not very accurate, but I think it matches the atmosphere of the series. Coloured with watercolour pencils and ink.

Well, and today I did the same thing.I looked up this week's Illustration Friday topic ("twisted"), opened a blank page, and let my brain and hands do their thing without thinking too much.

Coloured with the mini watercolour set I bought a while ago. ♥
All done in class. And all the while I listened closely like a well-behaved student. It also works that way with music. I focus so much on the music, I draw without thinking, and so I'm not that critical either. That's why I always have a playlist on when drawing!

So I think I found a good way to be double-productive from now on. :) Paying attention and filling sketchbook pages at the same time, which don't have to look good. But at least I'm doing something!

Alright, that's it for now.
I think I will tell you a bit about Helsinki next time. Or maybe about the sketchbook I finished. There are several things I could talk about, and I think I will. I missed blogging!

Good night then,
and see you soon. :)

Thursday, 16 January 2014


Hello everyone,

it's been a while again.
There have been some recent events that made my life a little tough at the moment... I won't go into details now.

I just have to think things over and make new plans for the near future. And then everything will work out somehow, I hope. Don't worry about me. :) Just so you know. It might stay quiet here a little longer. Might. You never know when inspiration hits you!

I had doodled something for one of the past Illustration Friday topics which I didn't submit, because I forgot to scan it.~~ But this picture and the topic, "Reflect", really go with my mood right now, so I'm uploading it today.

Good night, 
- Katrin

Friday, 10 January 2014

Art trade: Hunger Games fanart

Good evening!

When I started my education at the library in Salzburg, the first person I became friends with was Lena. :) She has a similar taste in books and music, and generally I think we just get along well!. Quite soon after we met she asked me to join her when she went to see Catching Fire. I happily agreed! I hadn't seen the first movie, but I did read the Hunger Games book series a while ago, and I was really happy to connect with other people, still being new in town. When we were talking about art, she said that she used to draw as well once, but now she hadn't done anything in a while. Talking about it somehow made her want to try it again though. :D So I offered an art trade, and because we were just watching the movie, and I know that she's a big fan, I suggested that we'd draw something referring to the Hunger Games.

That was a while ago, but due to some circumstances, we swapped our pictures today. She took a photo of both with her phone:

So I got Johanna from her, and she got Katniss and Gale from me! Lena told me that this is actually her first real piece in years, so I feel really honoured she drew it for me! ♥ When I had a break from drawing for some years, my next tries didn't look as neat as that. ^^' Apparently she had fun drawing; we already set the topic for our next trade. :D Disney's Frozen!

Here's the proper scan of my picture. I experimentalized a little with the brushes.^^' But I guess it looks ok. Watercolours and ink.

And now I should go to bed. Why is it that late again? Argh :D

Good night!

- Katrin